Year 2039
Celine's POV:
I was home alone. It was used to be a full of people, but now there was just me. I heard how wind howled and rain whipped to the windows. I walked all around to the rooms as I saw how boys played with each other and how my mom looked at them with a peaceful smile. But they fade away as quickly as I imagined them. I smile with myself when I walked through the corridor and came to the living room. All photos were there and I took on pic with a beautiful golden carcasses. It was photo of everybody. Of my mom and all of my sisters and brothers, Rene's older children with their children and my and Rene's three beautiful boys. We all smiling at the camera while sun was shining behind of us. Big, loving smile came to my face while I put picture down. I walked to upstairs and looked into one empty room. It had been Rene-Charles room and I went in. I could saw how he played his xbox and listened Eminem out loud. I could still remember the first day when I hold him in my arms and how Rene looked at him with tears in his eyes. I close the door and walk to the another room. Silence almost killed me when I remembered how loud Eddy and Nelson used to laugh with each others. I left that room as I came to my mom's room. She had lived with us after dad's death and I really loved to have her near. As I walked into the biggest bedroom I remember how much love that room kept inside. I felt how suddenly I couldn't breath so well. All the memories crashed into my mind. I sat down on the side where Rene used to sleep. I missed him so much I couldn't even understand it. I looked down to my ring what I haven't taken off since Rene's death. I rolled it around my finger like I always do when I'm nervous. It had been almost 20 years when I last saw his face smiling at me and kissing me goodnight kiss. I still could feel his lips on to mines and how he wrapped me in his arms and hold me tight. I stood up and opened his wardrobe when I smelled his good and fresh smell all over the room. I did that always when I missed him. I have his every stuff in the boxes but his clothes are still hanging there. I just need to smell him sometimes when I really miss him. While I was about to close wardrobe door's when his one jacket fell down. I squatted and raised it up from the floor. I was going to put it back when I saw one box behind his clothes. I put his jacket back and I took the box behind everything. I haven't seen that before and I was interested what it hold in. I got back to the bed and opened the box. First I was many letters and papers on it. I thought they would be some of Rene's work papers but when I opened one envelope carefully I recognized Rene's handwriting.
September 15 1993
Celine, my dearest. This, us is getting really serious and I will propose you. I know what I'm feeling for you and my feelings are real and more powerful than ever before. I'm not afraid anymore and all what I want is be with you the rest of my life, forever. I just love you so much and I can't watch you like this anymore. I know hiding our relationship is very hard for you but soon we will tell everybody. I love you so much.
Love,Rene xxx
I felt how tears were rolling down by my cheeks and I didn't even try to wipe them away. My heart was beating very fast when I opened the next letter and the next letter and the next letter. I realized he had been writing these just for me. But why I hand't seen these before? And why he wrote these for me? Why he never told about them to me? All these questions ran into my head when I read his beautiful handwriting.
December 20 1994
Celine, my best friend, my love, my life, my everything, my wife. Our wedding were just a couple days back and all I can say, you were stunning. It was perfect day and I would chance anything of it. I can't wait what life will gave to us but I promise to you I will be here for you always. No matter how far I may be you can still feel my love for you. And my love for you is endless. I love you Celine, forever and ever.
Love,Rene xxx
I'm sobbing harder than ever. Our wedding was just perfect and I would do everything for live that day again. I would do everything for see my husband just one more time.
March 30 1999
My one and only true love, Celine. Today is your thirty-first birthday so happy birthday baby! Even it's your birthday and we should be happily celebrate you, everybody are more than worried about me. I'm sorry about that, but I promise to you I will heal. I'm just... I'm scared Celine! I feel like our happiness has been destroyed. I know you are worried even you don't show me. You want to be strong for me and that's the best for you, for me, for us. Just promise me you won't never stop because of me. I love you so so much my love.
Love,Rene xxx
I closed my eyes when I slowly took another letter. I could hear his tender and low voice in to my head while I was reading his letters. All I wanted to do was ran into his strong arms and stay there forever. I wanted to see his smile one more time and hear how he says 'mon amour' while looking at me with velvet eyes. I missed that feeling what I always felt with him. I felt I was save with him. That he protect me for everything bad.
January 26 2001
My sweetest Celine. We have our first child now which mean we are parents! Yesterday born a beautiful baby boy Rene-Charles Angelil. I'm so happy to hold him in my arms and I can't wait for to play with him and tell everything about golf and cars. And you... Your eyes when you hold our son for the first time... It was something what I will keep in my mind for the rest of my life. Now I know you have a boy who takes care of you if something ever happens to me. I love you and our son more than anything in this world.
Love,
Rene xxx
Tears were rolling down by my cheeks and smile came to my face. I wanted to read them all. I wanted to read all his letters for me. I wanted to know everything about my dead loving husband. I wanted to know what he thought and felt inside of him.
December 17 2009
Celine, mon amour. Today is our 15th anniversary and I couldn't be any happier. Our long journey together had have ups and downs but in the beginning we promised forever and ever and I can tell, we will keep that promise. I feel so blessed and incredibly happy because I wake up everyday with you by my side. We are trying to another baby and I can't tell how excited I am. Happy anniversary my amazing and beautiful wife, I love you more than ever.
Love,Rene xxx
October 23 2011
My Celine, today is Eddy and Nelson's first birthday already. Time flies so fast and soon RC will be young adult. I'm so thankful of having you all in my life and being with you. I love our boys so very much and I love you my love. You are more beautiful each day and your voice is better than ever. Even though so many years I can still see a little girl who came to my office and sang in front of me with a pen. I'm so proud of you and who you are nowadays. Remember, I love you and I will always love.
Love,I stared at the last letter what I've read and I felt how my tears slowly stopped on my cheeks. I realized I still have that little girl inside of me. I've just forgotten it for a little while. I start to smile when I remember how nervous I was in that day when I sang to him for the first time. I read more his letters when tears started to roll down by my cheeks again. I felt his love from these little letters and I started to miss him even more. Why he had to go so early? First my mom died and year after her Rene passed away. I'm so thankful that boys supported me specially Rene-Charles even it was hard for him also. He had always been so strong and in this time he was really strong. I think because of me, Eddy and Nelson and he knew it was really hard for me when he saw how broken I was after my mom passed away.
Rene xxx
December 16 2019
Celine, my biggest love of my life . Tomorrow is our 25th anniversary. Can you believe it? We have been in marriage 25 years! These past years have been my best years ever. When I first saw you I never thought you will be the right one. Celine, you are more than my wife and best friend. You are my soul mate. You are part of me and whenever I'll go I have part of you with me. We are one remember? I love you more and more each day and I will never stop loving you.
Love,
Rene xxx
As I re-read his letter I noticed date. December 17 2019 was the day when Rene died, in our 25th anniversary. Tears filled up my eyes when I realized this was his last letter for me. This was his last time when he wrote. Suddenly I remember that horrible morning where I felt his arms around my waist. I remember how I stroked his hands while I felt something was wrong. I turned around and realized he wasn't breathing at all. I remember that horrible emptiness feeling inside of me when I called his name and shook his body. I didn't want to believe it was true and I called Linda who came immediately when she heard me crying out of her name. I wiped my tears away and took every single letter into my hands. I would say Rene has written over 200 letters for me over the past years. I held them in my arms when I noticed one envelope on the bottom of the box. I put all other letters down and took that envelope to my hands.
For my dearest loveI realized very soon this was the last letter from Rene. The last one what he ever wrote for me. I felt how my heart started to beat faster as I opened envelope slowly. I stopped as I had opened it. I wasn't sure would I want to read it now. It felt like this was Rene's goodbye to me. I wasn't sure would I want to say my goodbyes to him, but I couldn't resist not to read it. Tears came back even I haven't even start to read the letter. I took a deep breath as I started to read my husband's last letter.
Dear Celine,
I know this is hard for you to read and I know you have many questions in your mind right now. You may think what are all those letters what I've written for you. Well, I wanted you to know how much you meant to me. Even I had been married before, I didn't know what love is before you came into my life. You taught me everything about love, trust and life. Because of you I really learned to know myself better and I wanna thank you for that my love.
You may think as well why I left. Answer is simply to say but hard to understand. It was my time to go and watch you and boys above the clouds with my parents and your parents. With all our friends and kin who had passed away. I'm sorry I left like that saying nothing but I didn't know I would leave in that day. But honestly, I didn't go anywhere. Why? Don't you remember my dear? We are one. You and me, one. You have always part of me in your heart. You can feel my love in you, I know you can because I feel your love inside of me. Even I'm not there with my body, my love for you and our boys stays there forever. I promised one day I won't never leave you and I will always love you no matter what and I did so. I will love you forever and ever without any questions.
Even here is beautiful I miss you. I miss your beautiful face and tender eyes. I miss your lips and how good you smell. I miss how you say my name and how you wrapped your arms around me while we hug. I miss our time together and I miss boys. Please tell them how much papa loves them even they are grown up now.
But don't worry mon amour we will see when it's our time. And when this time will come I'll hug you forever. I know this is hard for you, believe me it was hard for me too. But only what I asking for you is still keep going. Do you remember when I had my hear attack or my cancer? You promised to keep going no matter what. You promised it because of me and I ask it just one more time. Baby, please don't stop for living as happy as you always be. Don't stop singing, I know you enjoy it. And what's the most important thing, don't stop loving. I know I was your first one, but don't think I have to be your last one. I beg you that when you're ready my dear, love again. Love somebody as much as you loved me and change his life as well.
All what I want to say is don't be sad. I've always hated when you are sad. Smile instead of crying, you are so much more beautiful when you smile and be happy. Your smile is so beautiful and it melts my heart.
I love you so much that sometimes it hurts. I miss you so much that sometimes I don't know what to do. But this doesn't has to be sad. If I could I would hug you for the last time and kiss you like never before. I would hold you in my arms and look into your beautiful loving eyes. I would whisper 'I love you' and wipe your tears away. And someday I will and I promise it to you Celine.
I love you don't ever forget that.
Love,
Rene L.V.Tears filled my eyes as I looked at the letter. I wanted to yell Rene's name and pray he would come and take me in his arms once again. I wanted him to whisper to my ear telling everything is fine. But nothing was fine now. I missed him more than anybody could even imagine. I wanted to be with him more than ever and I pulled my hands to my face. I cried more than ten minutes. After that while I was sobbing, I re-read it once again and went under warm cover. I lied down and re-read Rene's letter again and again. I felt how tiredness took over and I fell asleep.
Rene-Charles POV:
I drove to mom's yard and came off of the car. I opened car's door for Katy and I took our little princess into my arms. "Can me and grandma do pancakes daddy?" Emma asked while looking at me. "Of course you can", I smile at her. I opened the front door and put Emma down. I took Katy's hand in mine and kissed her cheek while we came in. "Maman we are here!" I say as I close the door. "Are you here?" I ask when I don't heat mom anywhere. "Maybe she is in shower", Katy gave a slight smile. Emma took Katy's hand and started to walk into the back door. "I wanna go to swing mamma!" Katy looked at me and I nodded. "You two can go to swing and I look if mom is upstairs", I say as I peck Katy's lips and they left. I go to upstairs and call mom. I knock at her bedroom door and I enter in. "Maman?" I asked while I saw her in hers bed. Some paper were all over the floor one mom held one tightly in her hand. I went closer to her when I realized everything isn't all right. Familiar horrible feeling came inside of me as I see maman in her bed. That same feeling came when I went to this same bedroom when papa died. "Maman?" I ask for the last time as I shook her body softly. A tear rolled down by my cheek when I realize she had passed away. I took paper off of her hand and I read it. I realized it was from papa and I smiled at maman. "Say 'hello' from us mom", I whisper while I kiss her forehead and left the room.
