I woke up and I looked out from the window. I didn’t even knew where I was. It was already 1pm, but I was so tired. I could barely kept my eyes open when Rene came in and looked at me. He said something but I didn’t hear a word. “Celine?” Rene asked again and I realized I can hear him. I raised my head and looked at him with blank look. I was so tired and he had so many plans that I couldn't even remember them all. “Do you wanna go to the shower or drink your cup of coffee first?” Rene asked and came in front of me. I just looked at him and gave a little smile. He sat down on the bed and looked at me little worried. “Are you okay Celine?” “Yes I am… I just… I go to the shower first”, I lied. He smiled and kissed my forehead before he got up.
I pulled myself up and walked into the shower. I was so tired of travelling and meeting people. I just wanted to stay at bed and sleep, but Rene didn’t saw that. Even my mom haven’t heard that even we speak on phone almost everyday. I felt how tear rolled down by my cheek and I started to cry. After a little while I realized I’ve been in shower almost half an hour.
When I came out from the shower I saw Rene with my coffee. “Here you go”, he gave it to me and smiled. I love his smile, but it hurt at the same time. He didn’t saw how bad I felt and he really thought everything was fine. I sat down on the sofa and drank my coffee slowly.
In an hour we left from our hotel to my rehearsals. In whole mileage Rene spoke to his phone. I looked out from the window and thought what I was doing. When I was younger, I wanted to be where I’m today. I dreamed about my concerts and awards, but now all what I dreamed about was a break. I needed it now, but I could tell it to Rene. He had his plans and he thought I wanted that too. I felt it was my own mistake. Why I haven’t talk to him? He was my manager and my husband. He would understand. But I didn’t want to disappoint him.
I went on my big stage and saw empty audience. It haven’t never seemed that big. I saw my band and my backup singers. They all were very excited, like everybody else than me. I was waiting for the music starting when Elise came to me. “Are you okay Celine?” I looked at her and I pulled my tears back. “Of course I am”, I lied again and gave forced smile. I saw she didn’t believe me, but she smiled and went back. I sang couple of songs, but Rene wasn’t happy. “Celine I hear something is wrong and everybody can see it, so tell me what’s really wrong”, Rene spoke to the mic. I looked at him and I couldn’t pull my tears back anymore. “Sorry…”, I whispered and ran off of stage. Rene came after me and pulled me to his arms.
I totally collapsed in his arms and he tried to comfort me as good as he could. I cried and kept saying ‘sorry’. He saw how tired I really was and we sat down. I felt how everybody were looking at me, but I didn’t care. I was so tired and Rene’s arms was so warm.
When I woke up we were in the plane. “Hi”, Rene said and smiled at me. I looked around me and there was just two of us. “Where are we going?” I asked and looked from the plane’s window. “We are going home.” I have have wanted to hear those words for so long, but I couldn’t believe it. Rene came next to me and I leaned on him. “We are going to have a little vacation here. I realized how tired you really are and I canceled your every concert from these two months. I looked at him my mouth open and smile came to my face. “I really need this right now”, I said and Rene smiled at me. “I know.” He kissed me and took me in his arms again.
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